A lot to be done

             Its the holiday season  now , oh how fast it comes around . I am never ready for it . Especially this year , I have moved back home and working hard to start over . Every year I keep saying this coming year is going to be better than the last . For the past twenty year it hasn't been , with all the drama that I have gone through . Well , I can honestly say this coming year is going to be better and different ,and that is because I have totally moved and left it all behind me . I have started a new job that I hope will be the last job that I have to start over at . I hope to use this start as a foundation to build from .
                I have hard all my life , but guessing have had the unreal expectation that my life would live up to what I dreamed it should be . It is mostly my fault because I had loved in the moment and never tried to build something for the future . To honest with myself , I always thought there was time for that later , and now I find that it is later now . I just have been always been trying to recover form poor choices that I had made . You know something , moving back home is the best choice I could made .  I just found out that I may have made the right move for a change .The company I worked for lost the contract for job I was working at , so I already left and found a job and they are having to find jobs now . I already got it out of the way . But I still miss my old job and friends from work .
                 I am looking to finally enjoy a holiday season , I get to enjoy some snow on the the ground for the first time in a long time . Yes I am trying to concentrate on the positive . I so badly want things to get off to a good start . I need to be on the road in my own truck , in my place to live and doing my own thing . I will continue riding my bike weather permitting . The past few months I so enjoyed riding my bike on the back roads , it was so relaxing . I also got in good shape and lost a lot of weight . When I get my truck I can finally begin to rediscover who I am . I want to try canoeing , start camping again  , and explore Michigan like I should have when was younger .I guess I have a lot to look forward to and to do now .