The purpose of this trip was to honor my Dad and lay him to rest with his wife , my mother . The apprehension on my part is I had not been home since mom passed and over time I let it get ahead of me and just lost touch with every one . Again this was all my doing . I was not sure of the reception I would receive when got there . This was what I was thinking of on the way up , but the worry was for nothing . My brothers and sister welcomed me . All fears were out at ease in the first moments after seeing my Uncle John . Because this I realize I really should make an extra effort in keeping lines open . Which is now made easier with e-mail addresses exchanged and all that .
Yes , I do regret not being in touch all this time . That is neither here nor there now . The lines have been opened , now must remain that way . I also should double the effort to improve thing with my only child . Also in the past few weeks my 57th birthday came up and among other things . It kind of makes you think of your own mortality . It makes think about your relationships with the people in your life . With that long ride on the train , this was the subject that was on my mind ,most of the time .You think of the dreams of what you thought your life should been like according them and the reality of what is now . You soon realize the large difference between them . Another thing you think of the projects that you never finished or even started . The thing to to do now is come up with plan of action to move forward , to see them come to life .
Another thing I have noticed in the first day back home is that the relationship with my other half seems to have improved some . All in all life is looking up right now .During the ride there I meet with people whose life was no different than mine . Their concerns were about the same . Their thoughts were all on what they need to do to make this life work and the mess that our government is and how its affecting there lives . I found its pretty much the same around the country . Although the reasons they were traveling were as varied as the people who were on the train . All had their own concerns and thoughts of how to get there , but the results they were looking for are the same . Making the best of their lives ,and how to make work .
The road people travel on in their lives is as different as the people . The route the take depends on the individuals , their background and where their mind is at . Oh yes , we do make a lot of wrong turns along the way . There is no one road map for all of us to follow , if there was life would be real easy . The fact of the matter is its not and there is so many road block placed in front us . its the choices that we make the make it so hard . And once that choice is made , we can not back to intersection and change it . We have to get back on the right from where we at . It is never easy to get back on track and to get where you need to be . You just have to looking ahead and keep an eye out for road signs and hope you make the right turn you need .
All these thoughts came to me while traveling the rails this week . Some of the came from my own thoughts ,others came while observing people as I went across our great country . As I talked to people , listened and watched them . I found that most people have much the same concerns as I have . Although there were those that believe in the legend and propaganda . They those that say it is so because they said so . The never state facts just ideas and opinions . Any thing they say they will not question it , just believe it is so . This goes just as well for politics as it does for religion .
When you take a long road trip you plenty of time to ponder what you have heard and thought about . As usual when you travel for the reason I did you think about all these things . You think about ,If you are living a life worth living . I know my Dad has , with all the places he has been and all the things he had done in his life . Married to the same woman his whole life . He helped raise us four kids ,if I may say so we turned out alright . We were not perfect , we did screw up , but we came out alright . My parents did a good job with us , without the help of all parenting experts . When we were growing up there was no Dr. Phil , Oprah or any of these so called experts on TV. The did not need a book to tell them what to do when we were wrong .Plain and simple going to bed without dinner did fine with me ,except there was the occasional butt whopping . At times I still feel the whoppings but this all made me a better person I hope .
You hear all these thoughts and ideas or lack there of , I soon realize for the privilege to think and believe this way , my old man give the best part of his life so we can do so . BUT for our do nothing government to do absolutely nothing be it local, state or federal he do not do his duty to God and Country to make no progress . For this He did give up most of adult life .The people in office need to remember there group of people whom gave of their life so you can sit up there and play chicken with our tax money and our country's legitimacy , your sadly mistaken . So get of your duffs and lets make this thing call democracy working . Show rest of the world that we can make our system work , continue the experiment our founding fathers started . Well I went of on a tangent this time .
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