A lot to be done

             Its the holiday season  now , oh how fast it comes around . I am never ready for it . Especially this year , I have moved back home and working hard to start over . Every year I keep saying this coming year is going to be better than the last . For the past twenty year it hasn't been , with all the drama that I have gone through . Well , I can honestly say this coming year is going to be better and different ,and that is because I have totally moved and left it all behind me . I have started a new job that I hope will be the last job that I have to start over at . I hope to use this start as a foundation to build from .
                I have hard all my life , but guessing have had the unreal expectation that my life would live up to what I dreamed it should be . It is mostly my fault because I had loved in the moment and never tried to build something for the future . To honest with myself , I always thought there was time for that later , and now I find that it is later now . I just have been always been trying to recover form poor choices that I had made . You know something , moving back home is the best choice I could made .  I just found out that I may have made the right move for a change .The company I worked for lost the contract for job I was working at , so I already left and found a job and they are having to find jobs now . I already got it out of the way . But I still miss my old job and friends from work .
                 I am looking to finally enjoy a holiday season , I get to enjoy some snow on the the ground for the first time in a long time . Yes I am trying to concentrate on the positive . I so badly want things to get off to a good start . I need to be on the road in my own truck , in my place to live and doing my own thing . I will continue riding my bike weather permitting . The past few months I so enjoyed riding my bike on the back roads , it was so relaxing . I also got in good shape and lost a lot of weight . When I get my truck I can finally begin to rediscover who I am . I want to try canoeing , start camping again  , and explore Michigan like I should have when was younger .I guess I have a lot to look forward to and to do now .

A Panther's fans thoughts

                Well , moved to Michigan before football season started , mind you I was born in Michigan , and graduated from high school here . All the while they have asking me if root for the Detroit' lions , I am sorry to say that my answer was no . See I am a loyal Panthers fan , and have been from the beginning. I attended the first pep rally on the field that was to be the stadium . I have followed the thru all the ups and downs since the their beginning . Yes , I have talked junk about them when they did not do so well . but what fan don't when their team do not do well .
                  They still were my team , I followed their progress good or bad . I walked around with my chest stuck out for awhile the year we went the super bowl . I was a fan for the entire time I lived in Charlotte , I rode past the stadium countless times . I have seen the Panther statue's many time ,looking up into their growling faces . Now  that am not living there , they a having their best year ever . It saddens me that I am there to experience the excitement that area must having about the team . Oh can tell you the main reason I will always remain a fan , How many can say they been with the team since their beginning . So give me a real good reason I need to switch teams . I don't think you can give me one that I will accept . I am going to proudly follow this years super bowl run . I will enjoy it , for every year I think this year is going to the year . It looks like this is going to be the year . All can I say about it is go Panthers .
                     I can say though I did and always have followed the Wolverines seasons , no matter where I have lived . It looks like going to be a good season for them . But only game that is the most important to me , it almost the whole season to me . and that is the Ohio game . I have almost always worked with or knew a Ohio fan . We always talk junk to each other about the game all year . I have always been a fan of the Wolverines , ever since the 70's . Seeing my mother listening to the game on the radio while working in the kitchen . On the Saturday of the big game she would put out a big game day spread to munch on during the game and a even bigger one when we went to the Rose Bowl .  So yes I do follow a Michigan team . I just wanted to put that out there .

Somewhere Somehow

         It been windy and cold ,with some rain or snow here . Not much of a chance to get out on my bike . Trying to get as much rest as I can , for tonight I start my new job . Starting tonight I will be proofing to myself that , am I as good at what I do . I will be working in a world class facility for the first time . Everything I have done is sort of pretending to be good . On my first night I have got to set the bar high and maintain it .
             The weather around here lately has been such , that you don't want to spend much time out in it . Kind of lazy cloudy days . My first real winter in decades in finally on the way . They saying that it maybe a mild one . I have not been into doing all that much , this past week I found it hard to make an entry in my blog . I remembered something I read a few years ago . Write every day ,even when you have nothing to say , just write . Its the only way you will get better. Who knows one day you will find your voice . I know I have a story in me , I just to find a way to tell it . I have been through so many changes in my life . I hope the last one will be the final one .
              I have no real idea if I am reaching anyone ,but that's all right though . I do this more for me , its a way to get my brain to do some work . To from getting lazy . At times it may seem like ,I have no idea where I am going with this , it because I really have no idea . So I wonder am I the only one whom feels this way at times . Am I really the one that's stupid and ignorant . The highest I have gone is high school and the school of hard knocks . The later has not been good to me , I have really been knocked around a lot . Life has not been easy . I always seem to get through it . I am now working on my last chance . I intend on ,always putting my best foot forward . Like I always say after someone tells me to have a good day , I say I am going to make one  somehow .
           

Trying to understand my part in it

                 This week has me excited , I am starting a new chapter in my life . I start a new full time job ,that I have every intension of making my home till I am not able to work any more . This weekend a old classmate from high school , stopped by that I had not seen in thirty years . We got caught up and made plans to get together ,and just hang out , which cool . Things are beginning to come together .
                  Now on to the purpose of this blog for the next year , discovering how a sixty year old should act . See I have no idea for I never been that age before , there is no handbook , no classes to take and for goodness sake not even a test . It just happens and your expected to know how . Your expected to know all the things you need to get done , where to go to do them . See I worked in a business that you always around young people , so you tend to believe and act like your young . I know that I wm not a kid anymore , shoot every so often , my body reminds me now . So what is it I need to know , what is it I need to have . I won't join AARP because it is like an admission that you are old . Also I do not believe they totally represent its members as they wish . It's just a way to separate you from your money .
                    So what programs should I be aware of and join . What should I be doing to prepare . Most of all do I need to dig out that rocking chair and quilt and be ready to just rock away the time . Should start every conversation with "When I was your age " . How should I be . I have a tendency to feel as though I did when I first started out working . That I have a lot to learn and a lot of dues to pay to earn respect . It partly though out my life I have made many poor choices ,that have landed me in the position I am in . Having to start all over again , build a new life . I trying very hard to do the right things so that I will not repeat my past choices . Because of them it is hard to know at times if I am doing the right things . Like right now I know should taking care of a chore ,but I am waiting for it to warm up outside . I should start on it at noon and be done by dark . By all rights to should not take five hours to do , I hope .
                   So I have been harping on this blog about this for over a month . Still no input , maybe I have seen a few quotes posted on Facebook and Twitter and never have the time or pen and paper to jot them down so I can remember them when I sit down to write in my blog . That tells me I need to start carrying a note pad and pen everywhere . Then just make the time to jot stuff down , but could become annoying to those around me . See I really don't take my blog that serious . For one thing not many read it ,and I haven't made any money of it yet . Yes , I understand you only get out of it what you put into it . For the past few years when writing my posts , I have putting my all into it . Some I could have put more thought and work into , but what I do is just sit here and type into my tablet what just flows into my head . That's why its called Thoughts from the head , and for other reasons too . I look at the numbers for the hits on this its mostly an average of ten a day although there is a rare day or almost a hundred hits . So I know its not what people want read about and my thoughts do not amount to a hill of beans compared to everything that's going on in the world . I not trying to impact the thoughts of the world , I am just trying to understand my little part of the universe . So what are your thoughts I really want to know .

Me , a bike and a road

                 Yesterday was a long day for me. I went on longest bike ride I had done . Mind my bike is just common everyday comfort bike with only seven speeds . The first leg of my trip was to see how long it would take me and what the ride would be like . It turns out to be a twenty-one mile ride . I left at 8 in the mourning got there at 10:30 in the mourning . In that time I had stopped at my brothers farm and talked to his wife and mother in law for about 45 minutes . So would say its not that bad of a ride . I don't think I made bad time either. As I rode I looked out for where the road damaged on the edges , where there my be dogs , and took note of landmarks along the way .
                    One thing happens when your go on long rides is that you have plenty of time to think , and you notice things that your don't see when you are in a car. Most of all there no distractions as you ride . There is just you ,the bike and the road . How far you go and how fast you go depends on the effort you put into it . Once your out there you have no choice but to peddle on ,because its all up to you to get there . Yes while on the ride I did a lot of thinking , the funny thing is I don't recall much of what went through my head . I do though remember the ride and how I felt when was done .
                               Well once got to where my new job is , I thought what the hell I am already over twenty miles from the house I decided to go the ten miles into Battle Creek  that was an easy enough ride along a state road . when town I stopped at a couple of stores just to look around and to rest a little from the road .
                             Now start the last leg to the house easy right , now that's funny . It started of easy but the closer to the house the more effort it took to get there . The hills that I never paid much attention to kept popping up . They seemed bigger than what they actually were . The ride took more effort to get home than expected . I did it none the less , I made myself push on . I had no choice , I am on a bike and only way for the ride to end was to get the house . As I was riding , this guy on a real fast touring bike passes me like I was not moving . That caused new to renew my efforts and push on . It was a very short time after that that ended on the last turn and stretch of road . I was familiar ground again . Not that was not on the whole trip because I have rode the whole route in a car before . What I mean I was on my way to house because I was in my neighborhood , familiar ground . My effort became more determined . By the time it was all said an done I rode about 45 miles yesterday .
                                     I do not mind telling you , when I got of the bike I sat down and went limp . That's when noticed it was three in the afternoon . I had spent seven hours on the rode , peddling that bike with a few stops along the way . I was wore out tired , but you I had a feeling of accomplishment . Like had really done something . Once I do get my own car , I believe I am going to continue going on long rides , because I like that feeling . Your just riding through the countryside , in no hurry ,with deadline to meet . Just you ,the bike and the road . I do not think I would spoil it by finding a riding partner .I actually think the long rides a personal thing .  I know last night when to bed I slept really well . I felt rested when I got up , no aches or pains , just ready to meet the day head on . Maybe I could have gone on another ride . There a few more good days coming up , maybe I will get on the road again real soon . I am now officially hooked on bike riding , the long rides not the ones you take the store on the corner . The cross country rides I like . Who knows , maybe we will see each other out one the road . I do recommend a nice slow easy ,comfortable ride ,where you are in no hurry to get there for everyone . All your worries , problems will slip away . You will forget them for the moment .

How are you going to act

                       Well , I have been writing this for a couple of years  . I written about many things in my head and life . Today is a particularly a good one . I am on the way to getting a new start in my life . Start a good job next week , one I hope to turn into home , where I can work till I am not able to work any more . I like work it can feel like we all are family . Time will tell .
                        Back to the purpose of blog for the year , I have received much input from those manage to read this blog . The best possible idea can come up with is , live the best life you can . Yes , it doesn't tell you how a sixty year old should act . I guess that how should act is up to the individual . I know that at this point in my life , I am not in a position that most people my age are in . I have to struggle to get things back on track but you know nothing is worth having unless you work hard to get it . So it seems that I have long road to haul in such short time . I so much to do , I have soon sit down make list of all I need and want to accomplish . The hard for is just how do I go about doing it . Where does one start to rebuild  their life . Yes , two items are done , a new location ,and a new job .
                            Yes , I realize that rest just don't fall in place , I have to plan and work at it ,just as hard as I would on my job . The problem is just what is it that I want to with myself . I do not want another  relationship ,except with maybe my pets I hope to have . So what is it that want to do with my spare time . I have so many interests , that I never had the time or even the money to act on . Right now is not the time to act on them , because I do not have a solid foundation to which to stand on . About the only thing can do is continue is ride my bike and help my brothers on their farms .Because of my situation I don't have much of chance to meet many people . The big problem for me is you get only one chance to get it right . I definitely do not need to or even want to get mixed with wrong crowd . Heck , can't afford to .
                             I am now the kind of person that keeps to themselves and really don't talk much either . So in turn I am not much of a conversationalist , I just don't think people have much interest in what I have to say or think . So why do I write a blog , it easier for me to write my thoughts .  So I guess what I will have to get over it .

Time, a tangent and no answers

                       Man , I tell time is going by fast , since I been up here in Michigan . The fall season is upon us , the first I have experienced i many years . Its the kind of weather for bon fires , Hot apple cider , hot chocolate , powdered doughnuts , hay rides , haunted houses , and corn maze's . The time is going by fast .
                      I am still looking for answers to my questions . Still have no input , but that's my fault for I do not have active blog ,let alone one that's interesting . I have seen some quotes floating around that I thought would inspire me ,but when I sit here with my tablet in hand I go dumb . I could write about the debate last night , but I did not watch it because I lost interest in it . The campaigns have turned into a circus act . No real questions are being asked of them , hear lots of promises , and no real solutions to our nations problems . Mostly all you hear is the same old stuff just repackaged . The only thing I want to see is the changes that need to made to bring my country to what it once was . Respected ,strong and the america dream back as it was . I want to dream again and be able to act on them . We are over taxed , over regulated , everywhere we turn the is a tax or fee or some rules that all they do is prevent any progress to made . What's been created is bunch freeloaders whom do everything they can to hustle free money and goods out of our government and they have made it a career choice . We have a you owe me problem . I don't owe you a thing . Yes I may have had some help at times but I did not rely on it to live . Once I got on my feet I took care of myself . We all need help at times but you should not rely on others to take of you for life . Well my rant is over . I at times seem to go of in a tangent .
                            Back to my , main purpose of late answers to my questions. How should a sixty year old should act , know ,have accomplished and be at in his life . Do I really think that I could find solid answers . I have one year to find out .

Thoughts and Thank you

               I don't know how many times I started writing this entry , but lately my mood or state of mind hasn't been there . I have been trying to get it together . Its been slow going , I have more years than you shake a stick at , to make for. yes , I know that you can't make up for time lost , but you sure try to gain much of what you lost and more with hard work . I not going to be a victim here , I am going to climb out of this with much of my own hard work . I in my mind have been in a strange place , here but not here , wondering at times why I am doing what I have been . At times its just hard to get motivated , but I just push through it . Just as with writing my blog I have a loss of thought .
                 I have never got much feedback , throughout my writing of my blog . So at times I have to rely on much of my own thinking . I know I have been repeating myself over the past month on a thought I have . Still not much feedback but much of that is my fault . My blog is not read by very many . I don't write with any regularity , or at times with much thought or work into it . I have doing this for three years and at times I had ignored it because of things going on around me . Well in the past few months I have made more entry's because I had made steps in taking some control of my life . I know that I need put more work and thought into it . Yes , more hard work needs to be put into this and with time more people will I hope will read it . I do believe Thoughts From the Head can be a blog worth reading . I just need to make that investment .
                       As soon as I can get all my ducks in row and move past this point in my own life . I believe I have made the right move , I have so work to do to get all areas back on the right track . So maybe the reason I have purposed the thoughts I have in the past month is maybe that I am looking for some guidance in how I should be , where I should be when turn sixty . So how should act , what should I be doing , what should I be thinking ,how far along on my bucket list ? Mmmm I guess I should put together a bucket list . I have made the move to live for , work for myself , so what I do , does not involve others unless I want them there . So if your are reading this please share it with others the more thoughts are shared the better . My blog can only get better with your help . So shall end by thanking you .

Still with no idea

            Well, here I am a few days latter . Over the course of the last couple days I thought of many ideas to write about . Only thing is now that I am sitting here with tablet in hand ,I just can't remember any of them . I know thought of a couple while riding my bike in town . That just shows the need for me to carry a pen and note book of some kind around with me at all times . Never know when a thought will strike .
               The sun is shining ,with a strong breeze outside . The temps are more comfortable also . Such a good change over the past few days . I only one important thing to to do tomorrow ,so I am going to make up things I need to do , hopefully they will prove to make some progress toward my goals . I have many unfulfilled ideas to do , I think I need to at least get one of them out of the way . What could do today or the next couple days go through my notes and get a list . So I can have an idea of what I need to be working on .
                  I am very thankful of all the help and support I have received from my family in the last few months . I am working now but I would say that don't totally have me where I need to be . The things I need to work on should be in that direction . Its not likely that , Publishers Clearing House will find my door and less likely that I win the Powerball . So I have to get there on my own ,and with the family's help . November is coming up , the month for giving thanks , and I have a lot to be thankful for . I will try to thank all those that have helped me . I need to to take the necessary steps that their help proved to be fruitful .
                    Back to the purpose my blog to seek answers to to questions I posed in the last month . How is a sixty year old supposed to act , and so on . I am no closer to writing my last blog on that . What need is input which I am not getting . What things is does supposed to know and have  ? What experience's should have happened ? How far on the bucket list should he be ? How is he supposed act ? What spiritual revelations should have happened ? Is is all relative to his experiences ? So where does one begin to answer this ? Who do you ask ? Everyone I guess . I just need participation .It not hard to leave some thoughts on this , they can be left on my Google plus page , or The thoughts from the john page . You do not have to be sixty ,or have been sixty , anyone with some ideas can answer . I still have about 325 days till I turn sixty . I am looking to know the answer , I just doing this to have something to write about in my blog , and create a discussion . To be a discussion I need input from others . I need positive response's , humor , actually all kinds of thoughts .              
                         So who of you out there is going to break the ice . I will by the end of the week be adding another entry , so give me something to write about . All of us at some point have or will pass this point in our lives . We all are in this together .

What is Thoughts from the head

           Well ,today I am going back to the beginning of this blog . I have been writing this since 6/12 ,and its 192 posts later . I have know idea what I got me started other than I had just bought my fist computer . I have been pretty steady at making entry's ,except for a little dry spell ,where it just fell to the side ,life gets in the way at times . Here lately I have been pretty good at keeping up with it .
             How I came with the idea is rather silly . My Father when I was growing , being the naval man that he was . He called the bathroom the head , it was also the reading room , the library and and place to some thinking . So out of that came Thoughts from the Head . How many of us are guilty of bringing reading material in with us , or while in there do some thinking . I fact in so long that is hard to stand up . Yes , I know this is not a topic we just don't talk about.  I just saying how I came up with the name for this blog .
                So I unload some of my thoughts and ideas in here . I am always asking for people's thought's on things . I have gotten a few ,but not as much I would like but that is OK . That will not stop me from asking . I this approaching 60 years old . As I mentioned recently , So I have posted a question , rather a series of related questions .
                  How is a Sixty year old supposed to act ?  Where is a sixty year old supposed to be at in his life at that time ? Where on our bucket list should we be ? Is there some standard for when we reach these milestones in life ?
                    To be truthful I have idea on how to answer those questions , and no closer to know any answers . No idea where to begin . The thoughts I had were good just make me ask for more . I will returning to this often over the next year . For not am I only approaching sixty , but during this year I am going thru and making a lot of change's in my life . I have already made a few major changes . I do not plan on going backwards , I do not plan on being in the same place . Yes , it had starting over and thing don't happen as fast as you would like . You find that you can not make it happen with help . That makes it hard when for so long you've done it on your own . But apparently not good enough . You've let something in your life cause it fall apart and it don't just happen over night . It has taken some time happen and it was allowed to happen . What's worse is you did not see it coming . So at times , it comes to mind you think how did I not see it , how stupid was I . Because of it you give up a job you like ,leave a place that had become home .  It good that I have family that cares and will help .
                         So you see I have strong reasons to ask these questions , and a lot of ground to make up for . It may be to late , but I gotta do something . I have to make something happen in my life and it will .