Thursday, January 17, 2013

ENTHUSIASM

                    Well , this mourning its kind of chilly and wet outside . With the possible chance of turning into snow . Its one of those days that make you want crawl under the covers and stay there .
                    Yesterday I got a email with a quote that fit these lazy days .
               
                     IF YOU ARE NOT GETTING AS MUCH FROM LIFE AS YOU WANT TO ,
                     THEN EXAMINE THE STATE OF YOUR ENTHUSIASM.
                                             - NORMAN VINCENT PEALE
                 This makes me to want to take a good hard look at my self . At work as I was walking around the hospital ,doing job , I thought about this a lot . I spotted these signs with the heading Ask me 3 .  So I decided to take a closer look . What a set of three questions that seemed to fit what I was mulling over in my head .
                      1. What is my main problem ?
               Well if your getting what you want out of life. What is my problem how did I get here ,why did I end up here . I sure your asking why are you worrying about that .If you know how you got there it may provide some answers ..
                      2.  What do I need to do ?
               Well in knowing the problem and how you got there , you will be able to see what needs to be done . Isn't the knowing half the battle .  The other half is in the answer to the next question .
                      3. Why is it important for me to do this ?
                  Yes , knowing why anything is important to for any reason . Why do it if it is not important to you . When it becomes important to you , should have the enthusiasm to follow through .
                I definitely need to keep this in mind . I need to find the enthusiasm that I had when I started this blog .Even my great American novel feel aside . We all have ourselves to blame for our place in life . What all I can say about myself  is I need to get off my butt .

Thursday, January 10, 2013

INSPIRATION

          How can not find the inspiration to go through your day and not find the positive engery to get through . When you start your day with a veiw like this . I took this picture this mourning , when stepped out and saw this sky . I felt the picture needed be taken . It just called out to me . Mind you I only used the camera on my phone ,nothing fancy.
          Don't this veiw call to do something with this day . Here I sit with my door open , temperture only in the low 50's . It sure feels good . With the cool breeze coming in and pushing out the old . Makeing the place feel as fresh as the out doors. This is inspiring me to do some thing with this day. How could not do some thing postive with day with veiw like this . It put me in the mood to make the most of it..
           I am going to take this oppertunity to get started on a project on my list to make the most of the positive energy I have . I don't think I take enough time to look around me to see what may inspire me . Do you ? Just the overall feeling of the mourning ; the cool breeze ; the mourning sky; and my chores around the house are done early . Tommorrow I plan on putting a ring on my ladies finger . There is just a lot of positive energy in the air for me . I just hoping I can make it work for me in all area's of my life .

Wednesday, January 9, 2013

THIS WEEK

             This week I am about to do something never thought would do ever again . I am about to put a ring on my ladies finger . We have been together almost ten years , we have been through so much  as a couple . She dreams of the day ; well let go back and tell you about it .
            One early in our relationship ,she asked me a question . I was one of those that could be considered deadly in a relationship when its just starting. The question goes like this " What do you consider the perfect woman ? ". You see what  I mean , answering that could have dire consequences to a relationship in its beginnings.
           Well ; yes I did answer the question . No I did not answer it in typical guy fashion ; I did not say Hallie Barry ; Whitney Huston or even Tyra Banks . It must have been because I was a bit more mature then  I thought I was . I proceeded to tell her . When I am old and gray and some what balding and retired , I will  sitting in a rocking chair some where on a porch watching the grass grow and the world go by . This woman will come out with my glass of ice tea and hand to me as I smack her on her rump , while I have a devilish grin .
          She then looked at me hard and wondered . She then asked how doest that make her the perfect woman ?  I answered well because she is the one that is still there .
           Well , here we find ourselves ten years later , after every thing we have gone through .Including a recent scare at the hospital. Yes , to be honest she did tell me I had to do this before her birthday in Febuary .
          How come it took me so long , that I can not give a answer for. I probaly should have done this a long time ago . I quess I was just  comfortable with things as they were . Shoot isn't that the way us guys are .  You can't blame me for doing what come natural .
        Now I find my self  haveing to go out and buy a meaningful engagment ring . Which I must say I have never in my 56 years of life done before . For this I cann't just pop in to Wallmart pick one up.Yes I know they have a jewelry counter , but that would be cheesey . Almost as bad as going to a pawn shop .
       My problem is that I have a small budget , and with the ecomony the way it is you all should understand . So how do I procede . I want her be happy and I don't want later look at that ring and wonder could I have done better . Yes I know its not the ring but the meaning thats put into it . Well the thing to do right now is just let it happen .

Tuesday, January 8, 2013

THE FIRST POST OF 2013

                      Yes my first posting of the year .I have neglected my projects this past week for which I am sorry . I have disappointed myself and let myself down . For this I have only myself to answer too . How am I to improve if I do not work at it .  Yes ; I am wondering what life has in store for me next . I will never know if I do not reach for it .
                      I am looking to make improvements in myself , my blog and my life . This can not be done if not proactive in seeking results . I have some self improvement classes that I am taking later in the month , that will take up ten weeks or more . I think my problem is I need to get some control over productively using my time available . I also need to be on the look out for things to write about .
                   I need to remember the reason I started to write this blog . Its suppose to be a narrative of my thoughts about every day things in my life . Also I should remember where I got the idea for the title . Thoughts from the head . That room in our life that no one person can go with out using on a daily basis . Here lately when i am in there my mind has been a blank , In fact ,I think in the past few weeks I believe I have been on automatic pilot . I think there are a lot of people out there whom are doing the same thing . Just plain existing .
                 I have yet to do some serious work on the possibility of that great American novel idea I had . I may have causally ran some thoughts through my head and not putting any notes down on paper . Yes , I need to regain control . Six months ago I was full of energy and ideas and was ready to dive in head first . Well this year I have to make a difference in my life and do something with it .
               As sit here writing this , looking out the window at the cloudy sky and the chilly temperature's outside , I see can not be as gloomy as it looks outside . I must learn how to make to most out of every step I take . From this moment on I am going to make a promise to myself that I will make every effort to make every moment count for something . Be it for my blog , my education , my job , my relationship and life . Wow , that is a lot of ground to cover . This is going to take some concentration , and be aware of where I at . Its the awareness that is going to take a lot of effort . Maybe Buddha's Eight fold path will be of use here .
              *Right Understanding                    * Right Thought
              *Right Speech                              *Right Action
              *Right Livelihood                          *Right Effort
              *Right Mindfulness                       * Right Concentration                                
           You know what I think Maybe the thing to to do is write all this on an index card , to carry around with me ,to remind of what I am working toward . I really want to make the changes ,to make every moment count that I have . Wow I have already covered a lot of ground today . I have really put alot on my plate for this year . I hope time will be kind to me ,so I can get some where with this .